I must lament.

My stupid ex guy friend Jeff refuses to talk to me, after our near-brush at a relationship. We got up to the level of hugging! How lame. Of course our couple-ness was never officialized, despite the fact that he talked of it all the time, like with the contact in my phone, "Jeff: Your Future Boyfriend". Like, come on.

I don't know.

I know that I need a new guy in my life. Well, not need. But eventually I will require a man that will restore my faith in mankind, since currently that faith is being tested to its very limits.

Also I miss make-out sessions.

Sighness to the fact that only one blog after Jamie's I describe my deep and abiding love for Graham.

JESUS CHRIST.

I've just been feeling a lot of pent-up emotion I can't place. Loneliness? Rage? Restlessness? Perhaps all the ones I just mentioned?

What a summer.

Don't get me wrong, it's been a good summer. I've been swimming a lot, reading a ton, catching up on TV (Pretty Little Liars, SURPRISINGLY good!). I've been keeping a journal, to organize my THOUGHTS THOUGHTS THOUGHTS that just blare in my head constantly and keep me up at night.

I miss Graham, but won't admit it.
I miss Jeff, but won't admit it.
If I didn't break up with Graham I would have eventually.
Right?
Right?
Yeah.
Did I mess up the Jeff thing?
No, he's an asshole.
Yes, I'm totally lame.
Run through various scenarios. A LOT of scenarios. Memories. Embarrassing memories that make me cringe.
Reassure myself that I'll find someone when I'm not desperate to find someone. When I live my life, love will come along and find its way.

But it's difficult sometimes. Which is why I medicate with "Sex and the City". Definitely helping.

I cry when I see projects fail.

LIKE THIS ONE!

Seriously, how long has it been since an update? TOO DARN LONG!

My sister's ten, and she's starting wearing a bra. Well, she never actually wears it, so I was passing her in the hallway today and yelled "Put on a bra!" 'cause it's how we show our love. We're sister's who are 3 years and 9 months apart, love is shown in weird ways with us. Anyways, she said "I am!" And I looked at her straight in the eye and said in the most serious tone "Well, show me it then." There was a moment of awkwardness.

Then I said, "Let's pretend I never said that. I sounded like a 50 year old pervert." And she agreed.

There's my story for the day.

I walked in my front door after walking from the bus stop, and my sister screamed "YOU GOT A LETTER ON THE LAP TOP!" I then proceded to punch her and go to the lap top where I did in fact find a letter in a pink envelope addressed to me. Jamie Amazing, 123 Apple View, The PC. ;)

I opened it up and found a birthday card. It was quite obvious what was in it because it is from my grandparents, and they always send me the same thing every holiday. So I open the card and out pops a $50 Visa gift card for Jamie Amazing. I found $40 under my old tv stand a few days ago, and then I found $15 on my sink. That means I have $115. That's probably the most money I've ever had at one time. I really like that.

Also, the babysitting job for my parents church group didn't work out. There were WAY too many kids there who would NOT LISTEN. Seriously. Ugh. I wanted to claw their eyes out.

Guess who actually studied for her WWW quiz?
Yeah, I did.
I NEVER study for those things, and I always get 70's. Which sucks, but I was used to it so I didn't really care. We have them every Thursday. 100 words off of lists. It's annoying and stupid, but according to our teacher we'll use them in college and high school, and they'll help with the SAT's. >.<
But I studied, so I feel confident. Yay? The highest I can make is a 91, but that's better than failing right? Yup.

I'm so far behind on YouTube. I haven't watched any videos from 2010, and I'm trying to catch it. The process is going slowly though.

-Jamie Loves Each And Every One Of You